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Metropolice UNION.03.719/Olivia Collins

Marty Robbins

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Exact Picture of Collin’s Suit


Lyrical Representation of Collin’s Outlook on Life
https://youtu.be/K8dcB9KSwxI


General

Basic Information:
“Name”: Olivia Collins
Real Name: Jessica McCormick
Nickname: 'Detective’
Previous Aliases: ‘CP/Civil Protection’ ‘Marty’ ‘Marty Robbins’ ‘Tracer’ ‘Detective Marty Robbins’
Occupation: Metropolice Force
Affiliation: Loyalist
Gender: Female
DoB: (12/2/1995)
Sexuality: Homosexual

Physical Information:
Height: 5'10
Weight: 120 Pounds
Physique: Feminine
Physical Disabilities: “Sometimes when I move my thumb it pops, does that count?”

Mental Information:
Mental Health: Sanity -/-/-
Suicidal Thoughts
Aggressive Personality

Mental Traits: Instead of having a variety of things to be interested in Collins finds herself within a small circle of interests that she adores above all else.. This includes Marty Robbins..

Mental Disabilities: (High-Functioning) Aspergers, ADHD, PTSD, and Anxiety.

Personality Information:
Alignment: Lawful Good
Religion: N/A


Relationships
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My Life: I want to kill my self.

Marty Robbins: He's just the best, I love him and his music, makes me sad he's no longer with us..
It’s been awhile since I’ve listened to your sweet voice, I need to get some of your music approved so I can listen to you sing again.. Although, I’ve practiced mimicking your voice and I’ve been doing very well- I think!

Carla Thorpe: One of the only people I really talk to and enjoy doing so.. Our conversations actually make me feel like I’m not lonely.. Come to think of it, I like her a lot.
She's someone I want to spend all my time with and make her as happy as I can, the only time I'm sad is when she has to go..

I.. Well this wouldn't be the first time something akin to this has happened but... It.. I don't even really know what to say but.. It's your world I suppose..

I’m really starting to miss you.. Hopefully we’ll see each other soon.. Though I have one concern and that is the possibility you’ve intended on distancing yourself entirely from me.. I.. I hope that’s not the case.

To quote Benny.. "Truth is.. Game was rigged from the start.."

I want you back.. So much but.. There really is no resolution in sight is there?

There isn’t any resolution...
You lack the spine to deal with your unreasonable doubts.. Your work consumes you.. And things will never be the same..

Atleast that’s what you say.. I hope you’re wrong.. Please be wrong..

We.. We can’t I.. I didn’t know... Oh no.. What.. You’re my sunshine... Even if I never see you you always shined bright.. A light out of dark places I suppose but now.. It’s all in the past.. And I’m living in it.. What have I been waiting for? I’ll never receive your affection ever again...Life truly is fucking miserable..

Kinley: I uhm.. I think I like her quite a bit.. I.. I like her but.. There’s no way it could continue given what I learned.. I’m sorry..

Mehul: A nice lady that I once consoled.. Which led to me becoming her friend I think.. I hope I see her again soon.
And on a side note it’s nice to see she’s happy with someone, kinda a contrast to my current situation I guess.​

Pepsi: I still remember you and it seems you haven’t changed, I think you’re an absolute dork but it’s cute. Hm, I wonder where you’ve gone, I haven’t seen you on-duty or off, I hope you’re okay.
You said you were going away to another city but I know it’s a lie, I wonder what you’re doing at the moment however..

450: He likes Marty Robbins, I like Marty Robbins. He’s a friend of mine!

We’ve talked a lot more recently and he’s becoming a good friend of mine.. He knows.. Thankfully he’s vowed silence..

He’s been there for me for quite some bit and I think we’re good friends..

HOLY SHIT! YOU DIDN'T! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! THANK YOU SO MUCH HAHAHAHHAHAH!

Sally O’Hara: I enjoyed the conversation we had and I was serious about my promise.. I’ll try and visit sometime.. In a lot of ways we’re alike..

I didn’t know I could tell you.. I feel a lot better now.. I really enjoy our conversations and I just.. I don’t quite know but I like it.

Y-you didn’t have to give me that but.. I appreciate it that you enjoy our talks as much as I. I think I feel abit better.. You’re perhaps the best friend that I have, aside from 450, though I wouldn’t use the word best friend I dunno why but.. Anyways I appreciate you as much as you appreciate me!

Karoline: I wish we never spoke.. Maybe then I could’ve remained ignorant but I gotta say, I do kinda like you..

976: I haven’t spoke with him much personally but I have to like him atleast a bit given how he wanted to give me a chance at getting into the Detective Branch.. Unfortunately it didn’t go so well but I hope he understands.. Well.. I’m not quite sure what that means because I just messed up the entry test..

853: You’ve been a good Unit to me and so far, I’d like to get to knowing you better, off or on the clock.

You have my condolences.. I.. I can’t forget you doing what you did.. It was so.. Human.. And now you’re fucking Robo-Cop.. I.. I don’t know..


Albert (Hans): He’s quite polite but terribly shy in some ways from what I can remember.. I hope he’s alright as I think he’s an alright sort.. Hans get Ze’ Luger!

Strauss: I see you hanging about sometimes, I try to introduce myself but it tends to fall flat and you walk away or never notice in the first place.. I just want to be your friend.
I doubt I’ll ever be able to be your friend.. It just never seems like the situation will arise..
Get Ze Luger Strauss!

Judy: I also see you hanging about with Strauss all the time, and I so desperately wish to be apart of a friendship such as that.. However in recent days, I think I’ve found what I’ve needed, not that I still don’t want to be your friends.. I still remember that time when you took all my shit and knocked me out before dragging me to the FOB though, ouch.
It has dawned upon me given your position as a Conscript and apparant relationship with Strauss that I think it’s unlikely we’ll ever end up in a situation together long enough to even make conversation, and it’s even more unlikely my autistic awkward self will say anything to make you like me or some such..

‘Alesky’: It’s good to see you again Comrade! I was quite surprised to see you at the UCH but now that I have I feel as if perhaps more friends are among us!

Well, I am apart of a faction that wouldn’t really like you, but at the same time I haven’t seen you around nor do I intend on saying anything.

994: She's something.. Kinda feels like we're anti's but I think we'll get along, she seems to have good intentions. Although I kinda wish she'd stop questioning me.. Come to think of it.. She's Greek which uh.. That makes me a bit uncomfortable..
I get mini-heart attacks from the things you say sometimes, and well.. I've come to grow more aquanted with you, and I think you're neato. Apparantly loves Muffins.. What the fuck..

831: I think he’s a bit fresh but aren’t we all? I think we’ll get along fine.

Sasha: He's a nice sort, I know he's an on-base staff, I remember his voice, not quite sure what to make of his request, though, if it's beneficial to me and helps or encourages me to go about my Detective work.. (Which has been dormant as I haven't anything to investigate..)
Hmm.. Well, he’s my new employer I suppose I Report to him what’s going on..
I haven’t seen Sasha for a long long time, I’m starting to get worried.. But at the same time, now I’m free from any possible blackmailing..

Kayla Stewart: I haven't seen you for a long time now.. We were close at one point and I wanted to comfort you after what they did to ya with the tongue and fingers... That just makes my skin crawl.. I.. I occasionally think of you and then it shifts to Landcaster and then I get sad because I feel like I never appreciated either of you..

Tony Sparacio: I uh, I remember you had a voice, then you didn’t, and then you got it back.. Now you’ve got a deli shop going on which is neato..
Don’t know much about him, so I guess my judgement is reserved, although I think he’s an alright fellow from my interactions.. Come to think of it wasn’t he the one that went about praising the UU or some such on a regular basis? I dunno...

313: I certainly disliked that interview, and that’s not just because I flunked the test but also because there’s just something off about you.. Okay maybe there is some bias.. I just can’t pin what it is..​


Faction Relationships
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24th Conscript Battalion: Even though are time together was very short and abruptly cut, looking back it was rather nice.. I.. I don’t fuckingnknow..
Well.. I kinda wanna be with you guys.. Comradery instead of.. Authoritarian like behavior..
Yea know.. Strauss and Judy were always together is there hope with the conscripts?

MPF: Today I witnessed what most certainly has shook me.. A man killed himself and above him was a devastated 853.. I’ve.. Misjudged my fellow Officers..

MPF High Command: Some of you are relatively speaking pleasant individuals who understand that basic human things will exist in the MPF.. Like displaying emotions and whatnot.. BUT SOME OF YOU ARE COLD HEARTED BASTARDS.. 853 lost 347 and they demote her for being sad.. Excuse me what the fuck?

Citizens: Most of you are fucking retards that make me question as to how you’ve survived up to now.. Though there are a few good ones..

Loyalists: Normal people, or atleast people who I can trust won’t stab me or slit my throat. And well.. I like them.
They certainly won’t hurt me and I respect them for being decent people.

Universal Union: I dislike you, but at the same time.. I’m rather comfortable in terms of needs, but in terms of wants..

Skinwalkers: Interesting Cryptids, I’d never seen anything like them and I was rather intrigued, it all started when I found that blood trail, I felt so brave back then maybe I was just masking my anxiety and fear from myself.. Too bad I won’t be able to study you monsters anymore though at the same time, atleast I’m safe.. Which is why I don’t want to ever get into a fight with one..

Did I ever mention the time I had a Skinwalker Girlfriend? Pretty sure she was.. Pale as the snow and constantly having low body temperature.. Cold..

Some Random Thoughts Collins thinks about:

So, I think life is looking swell in a lot of regards, I got someone I reaaaally care about, Tokens, loyalty points, my suit, and well all this other stuff.. Thing I find funny is that Carla makes me sad, not in a bad way it’s just I’m always waiting around I guess like some dog or something, and I haven’t seen her recently so yea, abit depressing without her.. Judging by the stature, Pax is back.. I got pegged down quite a lot.. The suitcase collection must be returned to its former glory! Though I worry my fifteen books which almost all were destroyed will never be able to be completed.. Maybe if I buy book armor, I can just disassemble it and take the books? Hmm..

Do I have any friends? I feel like.. I dunno, I feel lonely as I lean on the railings overlooking the plaza, I think of Carla mostly as I don’t really have much to think about.. Well, aside from Marty and those really catchy German Marching songs.. Funkerlied is my jam.. Am I weird? Like people always say I don’t look them in the eyes or something, I know what they’re on about but I can’t help it.. Are snarks a thing around here? If there is a god, please no don’t do it to us like that chief.. I wonder if anyone thinks I’m a Unit, I mean, given my attire and general love for law enforcement I would think it reasonable some have their suspicions. I wish..

If I didn’t already have PTSD before I do now.. I can’t forget the noise, the OVERWHELMING NOISE.. The screaming the shooting... I think some Officers are as disgusted if not moreso considering they had to do it.. I mean... I’ve seen shit, I’ve killed a lot of people before but, I’ve never killed non-combatants in such a way.. And it was always quick.. No pain but.. The SCREAMING.. And.. When I came back, so much blood.. More than I’ve ever seen before... Oh god.. I cried, which I haven’t done in.. Months? Regardless, I spoke with Thorpe and I’m feeling a lot better.

Yea know, I often find myself reminiscing of the old days when all people worried about was money and the 24th.. Compared to now it’s so different like a soldier returning home from deployment.. Which I was a soldier, heh.. For a short time atleast.. Until Connor nabbed me off the wall.. Come to think of it.. All my relationships just.. I haven’t seen Connor in all this time.. We were supposed to go on for so much longer but... Oh no.. Is he dead? Please don’t be dead.. And I haven’t actually seen Selene because she’s in Greece or something.. Life just changed so dramatically when we came to the City friends and lovers just.. Dissapeared from my life.. First “love” I found in the City afterwards was Lancaster which I felt was too rushed and I told her so... She’s dead now, I know she’s dead.. I feel bad, slightly.. She talked to me about how lonely and dark everything was.. How she got put off duty for a bit and then it all happened.. We haven’t seen her since, because just like everyone.. They all end up in the cremator.. But.. After Landcaster I uh.. Well, I remember meeting Thorpe once I remained as the only person willing to attend her workblock, which part of it was because I wanted to work and part of it was because I thought (and rightly so) she was cute.. After that I had a crush on her and with Evelyn’s absence I could well.. I actually don’t remember how we hit it off.. How could I forget something like that? Anyways it’s been great, but I can’t help but feel bad about all the relationships I’ve been in before.. I dunno, I feel like I’m writing a Biography.. Anyways.. I hope my daydreamings of cowboys and outlaws which rendered me to remain indoors for the past few days hasn’t hurt my relationship with Carla. I really don’t want to dissapoint her.

I miss my Vo-Coder.. Connor had it set to perfectly mimic Marty’s voice and I adored it.. I.. That’s how I assumed the mantle of Marty Robbins, because I could no longer go by my usual name Olivia McCormick.. This little incident named myself Marty. Which progressed to Marty Robbins, and it went on to become my final nickname Detective Marty Robbins.. Connor just kept going by the stale nickname of Klay though.. That- OH NO! I should’ve taken the opportunity to take Thorpe out to eat somewhere.. I mean, I could do that about anytime probably but.. It won’t be as special.. This is so sad, Alexa play Cottonwood Tree by Marty Robbins..

I wonder if it’d be neat to take up an occupation in Law Enforcement or with CHAD.. Why did it have to be acronymed as CHAD? Kinda group you’d expect Vanessa to be apart of given the name.. I mean.. Assuming I could go off-duty like any normal citizen so I could spend time with Thorpe that’d be great. Although I hear that line of work is rather well.. It can be short lived.. Though at the same time, how’s it any different than having lived in the Outlands?

What do I do with all my money? Like seriously, what do I do with that much cash? Like.. It’s just.. I don’t really have anything to spend it on aside from clothes maybe.. Though I did pay Pugno for protective services so that’s something worthwhile.

Oh I know what I can do with all my money, hit up Sally and ask if she has any Vodka for sale, I need to drink.. Maybe I do feel toyed with.. Feels like I've been shot sorta.. Sudden and well.. It hurts.
I need to rethink some things...

Had to work up the courage to do it but I feel like I’ve made the right decision.. Now I’ll actually be doing something as opposed to standing around doing.. Wait a second.. Haha.

I wonder.. Does power corrupt, I feel like I’ve changed slightly. I’ve done things that.. I wouldn’t typically do.. I feel ruthless but I don’t know how else to act.. Aside from that I’ve almost died perhaps once, but then again it was moreso a physical struggle.. Actually not too life-threatening but without backup it would be anyways.. I’m enjoying my time..

I can’t stop thinking about what I saw.. What I was approached with.. They.. They’re happy and they’re together, but what am I anymore but angry and lonely.. When I think about it more I just feel worse.. I want that.. Whatever you call it.. Why did I just think of Blue Moon? I haven’t heard that song in YEARS.. I.. I’m.. Lonely and yes I’ve said it before but... WHAT AM I.. ARGHH! I.. I just wanna cry and cry.. I never cry I never express emotions like I should I just.. I’m just Collins...

It happened! I'm an Oh-FOUR! I'm gonna do my utmost to do my best and study this stuff thouroughly, ohhhh I can't wait to see Thorpe!

Haven't seen any familiar faces.. And I kinda sorta cussed at a unit.. Due to how nervous I was I kinda thought something he said implied affiliations with my job so I kinda might've got a bit.. Sorry.. Anyways, I'm hoping to get a PDA soon for contacting people, which is to say probably no one but a select few.

Talked with Thorpe in person.. I don't think I feel so good.. I used to have so much more meaningful things going for me.. Going with her.. I mean.. Fuck I.. I sound like an inconsiderate and ungreatful asshole don't I? I used to.... I went as high as I could.. And now everything else tastes bitter.. Surrounded by Comrades and I'm the lonliest I've ever felt.. Probably because I'm always wearing that mask, I never see my old friends of whom I trust.. And I don't have Thorpe..

Listened to Nine-Nine-Four’s spiel about love and stuff and well.. I haven’t seen her since, although I think she’s still around..

So.. I’ve been on duty all day and the only thing I did that felt comforting was paying for someone’s medical bill after they got nearly beaten to death by other units.. She said we have no empathy.. If I was alone in a room and I wasn’t afraid of reprimand for being nicer.. I’d be as nice as can be.. And I.. I paid for his bill I hope that made her happy.. Kinda wanna talk to her more while I’m off..

Just another day to cry..
And another day to reflect opon my ever decreasing sanity.. I.. I want something I can’t have.. And because of that I find myself daydreaming of what could’ve been.. And I find myself dreaming at night of what was.. Alas there is no resolution.. No way to go back to how things were.. There’s nothing.. I.. I won’t but my life just don’t seem worth living.. There’s no real purpose.. I’m angry and sad and all these emotions I don’t know how to express... I stare at the PDA screen wondering what I should say and I fuck it up every time.. I’m just.. Nothing.


Haha, I feel suicidal. I kinda wish I had never asked.. I shouldn’t have done what I did.. I.. I don’t have anything to look ahead to.. There is no light at the end of this dark dark tunnel it seems.. why did I do this to myself.. I could’ve just allowed my ignorance to be bliss.

Someone knows.. Though I don’t think they’ll say anything about it..

GOD FUCKING DAMNIT COLLINS YOU FUCKING IDIOT! I looked forward to this for fucking DAYS AND I GO AND FUCK IT UP! And then after I understand that I’m honestly pretty stupid with puzzles.. I fuck it up even worse.. He asks, “Do you think you could improve and meet my standards next week?” And I’m a shitty Unit alright? I don’t know shit anymore and I’m just.. Incompetent and I convinced myself of it..BECAUSE IT WAS TRUE- “Yes or no.” I stood there in silence for awhile and I said No... I said no.. The Detective who fucking failed the entry test into the Detective Branch ain’t I special? Ohhh it’s all over..
I just..


With a clearer head I can surely say to myself.. That the one hope I thought was garunteed to succeed didn’t do so.. Instead rather exploded in my face.. It’s funny because I spent so long waiting and then when I get in there I realize, “Oh shit this is nothing like what I used to do and or this is quite arbitrary in someways although plenty of real things are arbitrary..” It feels as though I have no more motivation.. Aside from.. Thinking of what could be but what could be requires EVENTS ONLY FOUND IN FICTION!

note to self 2/14/19 get something nice ;)

All this time.. I had hope.. It was my saving grace.. Or whatever.. But as it turns out everything I thought was incorrect.. That fucking unit.. SHE IS THE REASON WHY I THOUGHT THERE WAS A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNELL.. WHY I THOUGHT I had a CHANCE with the one I wish to be with so much.. You were the EXCEPTION AND NOT THE RULE! I thought... FUUUUUUCK!

I could just... Head over to the locker and go on duty.. Walk into the bathroom, flick the safety off just like I’d flick the switch on my life.. One pull of the trigger, Collins, is all it takes.. Gently squeeze the trigger.. And then it’d be over... Maybe I could watch over her like an Angel or something.. That’d be nice.. But.. I’ll never be able to get the affection I So desperately want from her.. There’s always a chance I suppose.. But frankly all hope and dreams are lost.. Those ticking time-bombs..

Hm.. Maybe.. It’ll be hell but I’ll put the gun down.. I’ll have some friends to make it bearable

I’m gonna get it off my chest.. I trust she’ll listen.. I..I trust her.

Songs that represent her thoughts about things:



Rebels
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5DIFiHqNkt0


 
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Klay: You're the love of my life.. There's so much more I could say but I'm not sure where to begin..

Marty Robbins: He's just the best, I love him and his music, makes me sad he's no longer with us..

Selene: All I feel is emptiness, if you ever change your mind.. Do send me a message.

Irene: You've been with me and Klay for awhile now, I trust you, stay safe.
thats gonna be a yikes from me
 

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